Life at the Feng’s has been difficult to be completely honest. If it weren’t for baby Chaun, I would be gone. As miserable as this place is though I won’t leave. I couldn’t, there’s no way I could leave Chaun here, he rarely gets any attention from his parents Mr. and Mrs. Feng. I’ve never had children of my own and I may never due to a complicated health issue. So, I vow to take the best care of this little baby, he needs me. I have been researching parenting techniques lately I want to give Chaun the best chance at a happy life.
I know it is going to be challenging. It seems my responsibilities here keep adding up far beyond just simply being a live in nanny. I do most of the cooking for the entire household.
I take care of the cleaning and most recently I have been charged with general upkeep and repairs. It’s a 7 day a week job at all hours. I am feeling myself very lonely these days as I really don’t get out much. I’m going to ask perhaps for a day off just one day a week at the least. I’m so very nervous, I know that’s ridiculous but I am intimidated by Mrs. Feng.
I just don’t understand how someone can be so miserable all the time. To this day I do not believe she has even hugged her baby. I put on a brave and calm calm face but I just can’t stand that woman! Okay, here it goes I am going to ask them for a day off.
I took a deep breath and entered the room, “Mr. and Mrs. Feng?”
Lily rolled her eyes as she spoke, “Yes Shu, what do you want?”
“May I sit?”
“Ugh, whatever if you must.” Lily scooted over closer to Victor.
“I want to start out by saying working here is an honour, your baby is the sweetest little guy and I adore him.” I started.
Lily sighed out and interrupted me, “Okay Shu, I am going to stop you right there. We agreed on your pay and I am NOT giving you anymore simoleans than what you’re already receiving.”
I was stunned, note to self don’t ask for a raise anytime soon not like I have any free time to spend it anyway. I felt insulted but proceeded on, “That’s not what I came here to ask.”
“Well what is it then Shu I am busy and we all have work to do! You are wasting time!” She spoke sternly.
At this point I was getting so angry, “I want a day off!” I blurted out. “At least once a week.”
Lily said nothing she raised an eyebrow and started me down. Victor opened his mouth to speak but Lily hushed him. “The answer is no.” She finally said firmly. “You take your breaks when baby is sleeping he is too young to not have his carer nearby maybe when he is older but not right now. You are dismissed you may go to your room.”
I nodded a bow to Mr. and Mrs Feng before exiting the room and climbing the stairs feeling absolutely defeated. I should just run now and get out of this hell, but what about baby Chaun. I couldn’t possibly leave him with that monster!
When I got to the top of the stairs I paused. I could faintly hear the Feng’s arguing. I do not understand what Mr. Feng see in her.
I checked in on baby Chaun he is getting so big already. This boy is going to need all the love he can get. I feed him his nighttime feeding before heading off to bed myself.
A few days later I received some terrible news. Victor found me in the study crying. He came up behind me and rested a hand on my shoulder. I looked up at him trying to hide that I had been crying. He didn’t say anything just gave an awkward smile and sat down in the chair next to me.
We sat there is silence for a few moments before he finally spoke. “Great view isn’t it.”
“Yes.” I replied meekly.
More silence fell between us as we both gazed out the window. “I want to apologize to you about my wife’s behavior the other day. She can be harsh at times I know, I think she means well she just, doesn’t know how to express herself.”
“Thank you.” I answered. “That helps a little.”
“Your request is not outrageous, I think you should have a day off. I’ll talk to her for you.”
“I would appreciate that.” I said looking down at my hands in my lap. I closed my eyes tightly trying to hold my tears in.
“I thought you’d be happier than that.”
“I am sir, really.” I insisted as a tear escaped and rolled down my face.
“Then what’s wrong?” he asked.
“Well, a dear friend of mine has died and I’m terribly heartbroken.” I couldn’t fight it my shoulders shuddered I let out a sob.
“I’m.. so sorry to of your loss, is there anything I can do?” He passed me his handkerchief and I dabbed the tears from my eyes, his initials were embroidered on the edge in a scarlet red.
As I wiped the tears away I replied, “I would like to pay my respects. I already missed the service… but I would like to visit her final resting place” I couldn’t look up at him I just looked down at my hands and the crumpled up handkerchief.
Mr. Feng thought for a moment then spoke softly, barely audible, “If you were to leave now, I could cover for you. Mrs. Feng will be in bed soon and I can keep an eye on Chaun.”
“Really, you would do that?” I looked up to meet his eyes.
“Just this once, if it’s going to work you must go now and be quick.”
“Yes sir.” I quickly grabbed my outdoor wear and headed out.
I was exhausted by the time I reached the cemetery. I felt uneasy about being here after dark. There was no one around either. It was quiet though, the grounds were perfectly manicured. This is a fairly new cemetery recently built in Newcrest. I had never been there before and it is mostly vacant that’s how new it is. That, I guess, made it easier for me to find my friend quickly enough.
Someone had been here recently as there were fresh flowers near her tombstone. Pari Chauhan was a dear friend of mine. We went to the same school together and took many of the same classes. We were roomies for a while before she went on to work for the Villareal’s. I remember when she accepted that position she was so excited to be working for such a powerful family name. Now, here I am, working for a powerful family and I’m miserable. I wonder if Pari was happy? I wonder how she died? I wonder what she would say to help guide me on my new path here with the Feng’s. I stayed as long as I could bear it before decided to head back home.
I got home just in time, baby Chaun was crying for his nightly feeding and Mr. Feng was clearly panicked he had no idea how to help his baby. At least he was there, trying. He looked at me with relief that I had returned to save the evening.
I gestured for Mr. Feng to have a seat before scooping up Chaun into my arms. Mr. Feng looked on with amusement.
“See sir, he was just hungry. He usually gets a feeding around this time of night.”
“Thank you Shu, you are so good with him.”
“He is a very good baby sir. Would you like to try?”
“Uh, maybe next time.” He stood to leave. “I must go before Lily gets suspicious. I suggest cleaning the mud of your shoes before she see’s you.”
“Yes of course sir, and thank you.”
“Good night Shu.” Victor nodded as he left the room.
“Good Morning baby Chaun! It’s almost your birthday! Yes! Who’s gonna be a toddler soon? Are you gonna be a toddler soon? Yes you are!” I cooed. I wonder what the Feng’s have planned. Do I dare go down and ask? I have been keeping to myself the last few days. Just reading and doing a bit of gardening.
I don’t dare get in Lily’s way most of the time she looks downright miserable!
I never see her visiting Chaun. Victor has come by and even helped with a feeding!
Most of the time it’s just me and Chaun here. Mr. and Mrs. Feng are hardly ever home. They work a lot. I do hear them downstairs now though, maybe I should just go and ask about a birthday for Chaun.
I headed downstairs and caught them eating breakfast. Good, I was able to catch them before they rushed off to work.
“Good morning Mr. and Mrs. Feng.” I chirped as I took a seat at the table.
“Good morning Shu.” Victor replied. Lily didn’t speak, miserable as usual.
“So, I was just wondering with baby Chaun’s birthday coming up if we wanted to have a birthday party?” I suggested nervously.
“Is that happening already?” Lily asked.
“Yes Mrs. Feng and I was hoping we could have a cake and a celebration for him.” I went on feeling a bit more confident.
“Well, I have meetings all morning. Maybe we can squeeze in some time this afternoon.” Lily spoke as she scrolled through her phone.
“I’ve got my speech this afternoon did you forget? You are going to be there right Lily?” Victor questioned.
“That’s right, of course I’ll be there for you, and then we have an event planned this evening with your campaign managers.” Lily added.
I was appalled they were discussing his birthday event as if it was some sort of business affair. only all the other business matters were taking precedence. I sat there in awkward silence while they rattled off their schedules getting tired just listening to them.
“Well, what if we came back here in the evening and had the gathering here with my political party and maybe you can invite some of your business partners as well?” Victor proposed.
“I suppose that could work. I really didn’t want all those people in our home but you could clean up after them can’t you Shu?” Lily looked at me eyebrows raised.
“Uh, oh, of course.” I stammered.
“Oh and make sure to have food and snacks for our guests.” Lily listed off a bunch of dietary restrictions and requests before leaving the table to get ready for work. Victor winked at me and added, “Don’t forget cake,” He too stood up and left the room leaving me with the mess they made from their breakfasts and their dirty dishes. It didn’t bother me today though. I will take it as a small victory baby Chaun will have an awesome birthday party.
Victors speech was broadcasted live and I was able to watch it on the television while I prepared for Chaun’s birthday. I didn’t catch all of it. Looked like he had a good turnout. I don’t know much about politics. I know I should but I don’t, maybe one day I will have to get Victor to explain it to me. I do know that Victor is running for Mayor of San Myshuno. I wonder if he gets elected what kind of Mayor he would be.
That evening, they came home late with some of Victors supporters and Some of Lily’s business partners. It was a very formal affair for what I had in mind but Chaun is so young he may not remember this birthday anyway.
Victor was right there when Chaun aged up and I’m glad. I mean obviously I would have liked to be the one with him but I am happy his father was there for him for that moment. It made me proud, of them both.
He took his first steps right into my arms What a precious little boy!
It was quickly becoming an adult themed party in the kitchen and dining area with drinks flowing and dancing so I brought baby Chaun into the living room where we enjoyed cake. Mr. Feng joined us as well. Chaun made a little cake mess and I know I’ll be the one to scrub it out later but it was worth it. I can’t tell you how joyed I am to see Mr. Feng taking an interest in his son. Though, I can’t help but think how much of it is genuine or how much is a show in front of his supporters?